I can't stand clutter.
My husband can tell you. When things start to look "crowded," I roll up my sleeves, and call CCA (Christian Community Action) to come pick up boxes of donations. I also throw out lots of old paperwork, I donate books (or visit Half Price Books to sell them for extra change) and I start re-organizing things in the house. Kellus usually laughs at me about this, because it happens more than seasonally, and it always hits him by surprise. He never knows when he'll come home from work to find our house completely redecorated.
I just can't help myself. I can't be around a lot of mess. I just can't function that way. I need clean counters, vacuumed floors, clear spaces--- organization and simplicity. Not chaos.
What's interesting is how I tend to feel this way about multiple things in my life, and not just my living space. I even feel this way about the "clear counters" in my life. If one area starts to look too cluttered, it's time to start making some adjustments. I just did so with Social Media.
Close to a month ago, I decided to take a Twitter break. I occasionally think about signing back on, but I always instantly remember the reason for my break. It isn't to prove a point. It's to breathe. Detox. Escape the noise, and find center in Christ. Less concern with what other people are doing, and more intentional forward movement in what God wants me to do.
The truth is, I'm a mom who's busy enough for three moms. My life is always noisy. I'm a full-time mom to four kiddos-- a wife and mom in a house of six people. During the week, there's basketball practice, dance practice, business meetings, conference calls, loads of laundry, lots of driving, more meetings, business strategizing, home-organizing, homeschooling lesson plans (I don't officially "homeschool," but I do teach my four year old preschool curriculum to prepare her for Kinder next year!) and more. My world, as I know it, often feels like a great big category four hurricane. Sometimes I find my way toward the eye-- the calm of the storm-- only to find myself right back to the high winds. And friends, I often feel like I'm about to get tossed out in the ocean somewhere!
I started with Twitter, and now I'm steering clear from Facebook for a while. Here's why:
- I need to hear God's voice and no one else's.
- I am more intentional about actively engaging with my family, and being present.
- I would like to become more actively involved in community with new friends.
- I am carving out specific time to focus on NyreePress.
- I am writing a new book. (more on that later!)
- I am drawing near to God (read James 4:8)
- I am trusting in the Lord with all of my heart, and following His lead in all things.
- I need to find rest. (I'm not stressed.. I just need actual sleep!)
I debated on whether I should leave my blog up, however I know that writing through this part of my life is something I am led to do also. My blog will stay up, and it will likely still stream to my Facebook page (via NetworkedBlogs). However, I won't see notifications from there. So, if you'd like to comment, please leave a comment here and I'll happily engage with you! Community is very important to me, and I want to connect with you this way!
God is doing marvelous things, and it's my heart's desire to simply follow His lead and firmly grip His hand. For me, right now, that calls for separating myself from certain things so I can hear clearly and avoid unnecessary distractions.
So, how can I find center and escape noise? I plan to do so intentionally, while praying fervently. Simple as that. Please say a prayer for me, as I follow God's lead. I'll update you soon!